i do have something to say…because he can’t

My brother-in-law, Shah Zolfaghari was recklessly murdered on Wednesday morning.  He left behind my sister-in-law (Travis’ eldest sister, Camila) and their 1-year old daughter, Zoya.  You can read more about it here.

For two days now, I’ve opened up my laptop and LiveWriter to type out those words.  For two days, I’ve shut my laptop and walked away without writing.  I have feared that writing about his death would somehow seem like me trying to draw attention to MY grief and my pain.  Even though that’s the farthest thing from the truth, I still heard those whispers.  Surely lies from the enemy. To deal with this I take the best cbd gummies for pain.

It wasn’t until just now when Julie shared the GoFundMe page and  Katy called me a “well-known and much loved blogger” on Facebook that I felt brave enough to sit down to this space.  I do have a platform.  I do have a voice.  I do have things to say. 

And my heart is broken for my family.

In times of tragic trial like these, anger rises (who is this evil, senseless person who would take a life?!?) and sadness creeps in.  There are no words for this kind of sorrow that we’re feeling, that Camila is feeling.  It’s tangible.  The sadness is thick.

But so is the inexplicable comfort.

The Holy Spirit.

A blanket of all-surpassing peace.  It’s been laid thick on the Wright family.

There has never been a greater time than now for me to share my faith with you all.  I see God all around.  I see Him in the friends and family who have rallied to our family’s side.  I see Him on Zoya’s face.  I see Him as Travis mows Camila’s lawn because that’s something Shah would be doing and he can’t.  God is in every bit of this.  Even when the sadness lodges itself in the back of my throat when I think about the weeks, months, years to follow and what that will look like, I can also see fruit. I see JOY.  Not quite yet…but it’s coming.  Good things are coming.

God will rebuild the old ruins, raise a new city out of this wreckage.  He will give “beauty for ashes and messages of JOY instead of news of doom*.”  Without that faith of renewal, of God’s provision, I have nothing.  We have nothing.  But God will provide.  It says so right in His word, the word I’ve built my entire life upon.  I want to share the news of good things to come.  I want to share the hope of life eternal and an earthly life filled with JOY.

So I will say something while I have the chance…because Shah can’t.  And he would want you to know of God’s great love.

splendid…lindsay

*Isaiah 61:3