First, can I just say that I wept over all of your amazing comments yesterday? I did. And I want to respond to each of them, but honestly, I don’t know what to say other than THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU and I FEEL VERY CARED FOR. So I’ll just say that now to the group. Pretend that you got an email that said all that as my response. I’m very thankful for your prayers and support.
Yesterday, around 3pm, I had my second D & C.
There was no growth or heartbeat for the baby.
I haven’t had time to gather my thoughts on this yet or wrap my brain around the whys/whats/hows. That may never happen. I wouldn’t have posted today, but I know that many of you have been praying and worrying and I wanted to provide an update.
As always, thank you for your love and support. I promise you it doesn’t go unnoticed.
**P.S. Please come back tomorrow and I’ll share something pretty amazing/sweet/awesome!
Lindsay, i just wanted to say how inspirational and real you are. I know you are going through such awful heartbreak right now and I am praying for you and your family. I had a miscarriage at 16 weeks earlier this year and had to deliver my baby boy. I know personally that there are no words that make things ok…time helps a little…just wanted to thank you for being so open and raw w/ your emotions and we are all thinking about you during this difficult time.
I’m so sorry Lindsay. I have no idea why I land on your blog precisely on these moments, but here I landed to find this sad news. You are strong and you have a wonderful support system (especially the one who eats 1400-calorie peanut butter-with-ice-cream desserts every night). I know that doesn’t help right now (well, not sure on the peanut butter and ice cream part) but I know that people around you will hold you up when you need it most and dry your eyes. <3
Wow, I emailed you when I had my first miscarriage in November, and you did as well. I just had a D&C two weeks ago again, and it was so devastating to hear that news again. Thinking and praying for you!
Sending you all my light and love. XOXO
Anslyn and I were discussing your post yesterday and she said that she wanted to pick some tulips to give to you! What a sweetheart:) We are thinking of you and your family and wishing you strength:)
that is just the sweetest! thank you, Brooke!
I haven’t been able to read blogs much recently, so I’m a little behind in telling you, but I’m praying for you my friend! I will hug you in person in just a few weeks!
XOXO thinking of you and sending you continued strength and love!
I have no words. I will be thinking of you all day and sending you peace and love.
Praying for you.
Oh I am so sorry that this is happening to you. More comforting thoughts and hugs!
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss and heartbreak. I too have experienced a miscarriage & d&c. I know our stories and journeys are not the same….but please know that my heart breaks for you and that you are in my thoughts & prayers!!
My heart is breaking for you Lindsay. I’m so sorry.
I’m so sorry to hear this! Praying for peace in this difficult situation.
I’m so sorry!
I am so sorry.
No words – HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You constantly amaze me, Lindsay. I am so sorry for your loss. I’m storming Heaven for you, Travis and the babes – xoxox
Oh Lindsay, I am so sorry your you and your family’s loss. Please know you are all in my thoughts and prayers. xoxo
I’m so sorry to hear about your loss Lindsay! I just want you to know that like everyone else, you’re in my thoughts and prayers.
You are so brave to put yourself out there like this and I want you to know that I am thinking of you and sending you a big hug! Thoughts and prayers to you and your family! XOXO
I’m so sorry Lindsay. Love and hugs to you and your family. Thinking of you.
Oh Lindsay- I have so been there – my heart breaks for you – but do not give up my friend. Keep praying – God has a plan I promise (He promises). You are awesome – stay strong!
My heart is heavy for you and your family right now..I am praying you can find comfort and peace in Jesus and feel His loving arms wrapped around your family.
LOTS of prayers and thoughts again! You are so loved and it’s great you have all this positive support and love to surround yourself with during this time <3
So very sorry you are going through this. My heart just aches for you. Even 13 years after mine, there are always the why & what if questions that come up at the most random times. While it may not answer the “why,” i was encouraged with this nugget & I hope it brings some comfort: For whatever His good purposes are, He allowed you to carry a life, even if it was ever so briefly. There is something about knowing a perfectly sinless saint went from your womb directly to the throne of God without suffering in this world.
Praying for you….xoxo
Oh Lindsay we are praying for you and thinking of you. Wish we could give you a BIG TWIN HUG :)
So sorry for your loss, Lindsay!! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!! If there is anything you need, or that I can do for you, please let me know!! Love you!!!!
My heart hurts for you. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so sorry for your and your family’s loss. Hugs to you.
I love you and I’m praying for you!
I’m so very sorry for your loss…
Linds, I’m so sorry. I wish I could just give you a huge hug right now. Hang in there. Prayers to you and your sweet family.
I have tears and chills reading this. I don’t comment often on your blog, but your posts are always encouraging, heart warming, and motivational to me. You are so brave to openly share your life with those of us you have never even met. I can only imagine all the many lives you are touching. Sending prayers and hugs to you.
I’m so sorry, that really sucks. I will be continuing to pray for you.
praying for God’s comfort, peace and hope. xoxo
Lindsay, giant hugs and prayers coming your way. I’m so very sad for the loss of your little one. xo
All I can say is love. To you. To your family. To the little soul who was and always will be.
Praying for you!
This breaks my heart and I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. I just hope God makes sense of all this soon! There just HAS to be SOMETHING good coming!! <3 <3
i rarely comment on your page.. but i’m so sorry for your loss.
Praying for you and yours. <3
I am so sorry for your loss Lindsay. I know this doesn’t help, but my mom went through two miscarriages as well and had 2 more children after them. I hope and pray for your faith to be stronger than ever during this incredibly difficult time. Love you!
:( I’m sorry Lindsay. I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now. I hope that if you guys decide to stop trying that a little miracle might happen (it always seems to go that way!). Love and hugs coming your way (and coming your way for real very soon!).
Sending prayers and hugs <3
All my love being sent your way…praying for you!
Sending you so much love. There is a plan for you and these little ones. I just know it xoxox
sending more love as I know there are no words
I don’t understand why things like this happen to such wonderful people. If this is what you really want, I hope you never give up.
All I want to say is this: I pray for you, for your family, and am sending as much love and strength your way as I can. xoxo
Praying for God’s comfort, Lindsay. I’m so sorry.
I am so sorry Lindsay. You are with me in my thoughts and prayers. I cannot imagine what you are going through but I will say that God has a plan for you. Even when its hard to understand! Big hugs to you and your family!
I am so sorry. I cannot even imagine how this feels. I am hoping that time will bring you peace.
Oh Lindsay, my heart aches for you, I am so sorry for your loss. May the God of Peace bring comfort and healing. xoxo
I saw Travis’ post on instagram last night, and my heart just broke for you…I’m so sorry, Lindsay…I’ll continue to pray for you – that the Lord surrounds you with peace and love…
Oh Lindsay. Tears are falling as I write this to you. You’re wounds are too fresh to have to go through this again. As you know just 5 short weeks ago, I was going through the same thing…and I found HOPE STRENGTH and COMFORT in these words “weeping may endure for the night, but JOY comes in the morning.” The Lord knows best even when we can’t begin to understand.
Someone told me recently that “it may feel like death, may smell like it and may hurt like it but its only the valley and a shadow of death – there IS another side. If you keep walking you’ll make it through.”
Don’t give the Devil the opportunity to delight in this brokenness.
Love and prayers.
I am so sorry to read this. Keeping you in my thoughts during this difficult time.
So much love to you my sweet friend. You deserve and extra tequila shot this cinco de mayo weekend. Xoxo
I’m so sorry Lindsay. Sending you love, hugs and well wishes.
love you so, so much…so sorry to hear this, friend.
Oh. I was praying for you all weekend and hoping for good news at the ultrasound. Let me know if you need anything at all. I will literally drive to give you a hug and sit with you if you need that too. I love you dearly.
Oh Lindsay :( My heart breaks for you. You have such a beautiful heart and spirit and are such a wonderful mom to your two little ones. I’m praying for strength for your family and hope that God comforts you with His Peace today. Lots of love.
I’m so very sorry!!
I wish I could give you a hug & pray for you in person. I am so, so sorry. I am keeping you & your family in my prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss. My time have healing power for you…. (((hugs)))
I am so sorry , I know no words can make it better, but just know you got a lot of love and prayers coming from over here <3
oh lindsay, hug those beautiful little ones at home tight and remember you have two baby angels watching over you now.
Oh, Lindsay. My heart breaks for you, but I know how strong you are. Sending you lots and lots of healing prayers and love, my friend.
I am so sorry for your loss Lindsay. We will continue to keep your family in our prayers.
So sorry to hear this Lindsay, thinking of you and your family.
Love you. always praying for you. xxoo
I saw your hubby’s post on instagram…friend, I’m so sorry. This has happened to my sister 4 times now, and all I can say is I feel for you. I’ve seen it hit home with someone I love, and it’s heart-breaking – and all I want to do is hug. Hug and be there. I don’t need to tell you God has a plan – because you’re a woman of strong faith. I know you feel it and believe it.
Take care of you and love on those two beautiful babies of yours.
Praying, friend, and sending healing, strengthening thoughts your way.
I was praying for you last night. Praying that the Lord surrounds you with His peace in this time.
Continuing to think of you and your family during this heartbreak
big hugs to you and your family
Oh honey, I am so so sorry! I can only imagine your pain. Thoughts and prayers and the BIGGEST of hugs to you sweetheart! xoxo
The trials that your family has faced through the devastation of losing two babies are unimaginable to me. All I can hope to offer is prayer and love, knowing that His plan is for your good through it all. All of us who follow your blog are blessed and inspired daily by your strength and honesty. God Bless you, Lindsay.
Oh Lindsay, I’m so sorry to hear this. I am still praying for you and your family. Take care, get lots of hugs from your children and husband, and know that God has a plan.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Praying for your family!