devastated

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Numb.

 

Cheated.

 

Saddened.

Robbed.

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All those and more.  I don’t feel like writing, so this post will be short.

Yesterday, Travis and I went in for our first midwife’s appointment.  During this appointment, we learned that I had miscarried our baby.  I go in for a D & C tomorrow.

No more words today.

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grieving…lindsay

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  6. Betty says:

    Hi Lindsay…I found your blog via Chelsey’s blog. I just wanted you to know that I have been in your exact situation….and I know how hard and how unfair it is. I miscarried our baby last January and also had a D&C. If you need someone to ‘talk’ with, ask questions…I’m happy to help. Please know that you and your husband are in our prayers.

  7. Amy@spotonwellness says:

    Hi Lindsay,
    I am so sorry for your loss. I can truly understand the pain you are feeling and my thoughts and prayers go out to you, your husband and your families. In 2005, I had a stillbirth at 27.5 weeks and it was the WORST day, week, month, time of my life (and my husbands, too). We can never fully understand why it happened, but for me, I have faith that God knew something I didn’t. Our little angels are looking down on us and wrapping their tiny little hands in ours when we need it most. I am sending hugs to you and pray you feel peace soon.

  9. Ali @ WHOLEistically Fit says:

    I am so sorry to hear of you and your husband’s tremendous loss. There are no words. I am thinking of you and sending you a warm embrace. May you both experience great comfort and love in this time of despair. My heart goes out to you.

  11. Katie @ peacebeme says:

    Aw I am so sorry for the pain you are going through Lindsay. Hard things happen and I truly believe that the function of God is to comfort us and give us strength through the hard times, so I am praying that you feel those things during this time. Thinking of you!

  13. SuzanneU says:

    My prayers are with you. I just lived through the same devestation. I was pregnant with my first baby and lost it. Had a D&C on Halloween. It gets better. You just have to take it one day at a time.

  16. Lindsay says:

    Lindsay, you are a gift and a treasure; you warm my life everyday through your blog. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers as well as your little guardian angel.

  17. Lindsay says:

    Lindsay, you are gift and a treasure; you warmly touch my life everyday. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, as well as your little guardian angel.

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  35. Anne Jasinski says:

    I am so so sorry. With two healthy children at home, I miscarried (well, ectopic so surgery required) our third child. I was blown away at how devastated I was (I think I felt so guilty being so distraught as so many around me couldn’t conceive and we already had two.)But as you know, it was our child and God’s child and I felt robbed nonetheless. It was a while before I was ready to even think about trying again (but thankfully we did and had an uneventful, healthy pregnancy)I will pray that you will heal mentally and physically soon.

  36. AlexandraFunFit says:

    I wish for you the healing powers of grieving and the hope of knowing you are loved by many. Those of us who have had miscarriages will always hold the “what if” in our heads and hearts. Much love to you and to your husband.

  39. Janet says:

    Praying that the peace that surpasses all understanding would surround you and your family and praying that God would wrap His loving arms around you for comfort at this time. I’m so sorry.

  47. Christin@christinjoyful says:

    Crying at my desk right now. I am so sorry Lindsay and family. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

    “But if we live in the light, as God is in the light, we can share fellowship with each other.” (1 John 1:7 NCV)

    Hugs and tears,

    Christin

  50. Jonathan Aluzas says:

    Oh man. So, so sorry. My wife and I went through 5 years of fertility treatment including surgeries and multiple rounds of IVF and in the end, nothing. No babies for us.

    But you, I know it will work out for you. This sucks for now, but I know it will work out.

  51. Shayla B. says:

    You have no idea who I am but I have been following your blog for a little while and love it. As a mom of 2 myself I felt like I should leave a comment wishing you the best and hoping for the peace and healing of the Lord to help calm your saddened heart. I cannot say that I know what you are feeling and going through but I hope that He who does will help you to find what you need, whatever or wherever it may be.

  53. Kristen says:

    I am so sorry Lindsay. You are seem such a wonderful mom. I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers. Remember, God’s love is big enough and strong enough for all that you’re feeling right now, even anger at Him.

  56. Laura @ Mommy Run Fast says:

    Oh my friend, my heart aches for you. What terrible news… I will definitely be praying for you. Wish I lived nearby, I’d gladly take the kiddos for an afternoon so you could sleep and cry and grieve. Sending much love…

  63. Molly Ritterbeck says:

    Lindsay – I carried to 20 weeks and then found out…I am so sorry for your loss and can only tell you thaat you just need to do what you can to get better. No one can tell you how to heal…Sending love and hugs….if you have ANY questions – please let me know!

  65. Jentry Nielsen says:

    Oh my goodness Lindsay! I am so incredibly sorry for your loss, I have no words! My prayers and thoughts will be with your family during this devastating time! It’s hard to know why, but God has his plan and I know your family will only become stronger through this!

  70. Brianna Williams says:

    I am so sad to hear about your loss. I will be praying for you. As I thought about you, my reading in Hebrews this morning came to my mind: “Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?…No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees.” Heb 10:7, 11-12. This is an extremely difficult situation but God still loves you, He is still there, and you will be closer to Him on the other side. Hang in there, many are praying for you.

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  75. Lisa says:

    Oh Lindsay, this makes me so sad to hear. I’m sorry to hear this news. And I’m praying and thinking of your family much during this time! Stay strong! Hugs.

  76. Kristin @ My Mission Impossible says:

    I have been here too, although I knew it was happening. I know how you are feeling and I’m sad that you are going through this. It won’t help now, but you will be okay eventually. You and you’re family will be in my thoughts and prayers, I’m so very sorry for your loss.

  77. Marie says:

    I am so so sorry for your loss. Words cannot express how I know you must be feeling. Stay strong and know that many many people are praying for you.

  85. Candice says:

    I’m so sorry Linds! Keep your head up. It happens, but its never okay. Just know there was nothing you could of done to prevent it. It is not your fault at all. I have been through it multiple times. Lean on your family and friends for support. We are all here for you! xoxo

  97. Sabrina @Work It Ms Jackson says:

    Lindsay, I am so sorry about your loss. I have been there and know the pain you are feeling and am heartbroken for you. I know nothing I say can truly make you feel better, but maybe God thought your baby was perfect for Earth. I’ll be thinking about you and your family.

  108. Katie says:

    And we know that God causes ALL THINGS to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

    ALL THE THINGS.

    I know you are broken and grieving. I know it hurts and nothing that anyone says can make it better. But He’s totally got you.

    I love you dear friend.

  121. Katie says:

    I wish I had the words to make you feel better, I am so sorry for your loss and I am thinking of you and the family today. You both are in my prayers <3 I am here if you need ANYTHING. Please do not hesitate to email me. Love you <3

  122. Holly says:

    My heart is aching for you today. Praying for peace and assurance that God it’s all knowing and that He has the perfect plan for your life. Prayers for those grieving with you

  127. Bonnie says:

    Lindsay – like others have said no words are even appropriate right now save for groans we know the Holy Spirit will interpret for us in prayer to Jesus. I was shocked to read this and can’t imagine being the woman who receives this news…Praying for you now and all day as you, Travis and your family come to mind. Love you.

  129. Holly says:

    There is nothing that I can say that will help…I wish there was,but I cannot even imagine what the two of you are going through. LOTS of prayers and thoughts sent your way.

  141. Amanda @RunToTheFinish says:

    oh love I am so sorry. I don’t know what you are going through, but have a set of amazing friends who have been through this. If you reach a point where talking to others will help please know there are people who do understand and can help share with you. Lots of hugs

  146. Leianna says:

    I’m an avid reader but never comment. Had to today to say God is still working in your life and is IS by your side! Praying for your family in this sad time:)

  152. lindsay says:

    Lindsay, you know i am here for you. Praying over you, grieving with you, and more. Cry out to GOd. Anger and all. Feel his comfort. Love you so much. I’m so sorry friend.

  154. Sharla says:

    Lindsay,
    This is a pain I understand and I am heart broken for you this morning. These are dark days. Know there are many people praying for you and the Creator is still in control. You’ve been such a support for me if there is anything I can do for you I am here!

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