currently: december

December 22, 2014 in Advocare, Blog, Blogging, currently, Loving Lately by lindsaymwright

Happy Monday!

And almost Merry Christmas!  I know I say this every year but I fully believe it this year – Christmas snuck right up on us.  Like tiptoed through the house and poked me on the right shoulder and I look over my right shoulder but Christmas is on the left.  That trickster.  Between my papaw’s sickness (he’s got a few days – please pray), the coffee shop and last week’s Christmas show (yes, we did a Christmas show…I can’t say no), the 25th is way closer than I’d care to admit.  The end of the year is way closer too.  Anyway, I saw Ashley’s post last week and remembered its been forever since I’ve done a “Currently” post so here goes….

Currently:  I’m currently sitting in my pajamas at the kitchen table, sipping an almost-too-cold cup of coffee (My third of the day) and eating a new 4% milkfat Chobani yogurt!  Have you tried these yet?  I mixed in some homemade strawberry jam and crushed flaxseed.  SO good.

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Current Inspiration:  My mama.  She’s been a trooper over the last few weeks with my papaw’s illness.  She’s either been by his side or with my mamaw (who has dementia) and get this…she calls me every day to see how I’M doing.  I love her.  She inspires me.

Current Book:  It pains me to say this (because I really DO love reading) but I still haven’t finished the book that I was reading like two months ago.  The Best Yes by Lysa Terkeurst.

Current Product Find:  (I’m copying Ashley on this as we’re both Advocare affiliates!)  This isn’t really a “find” BUT AdvoCare announced the first ever national 24 Day Challenge and I’m really excited about it!

24 Day Challenge All In

Not only will there be thousands of people nationwide doing the challenge together, but Advocare has created some perks if you order quickly!  If you order before December 31st, you can complete the “All In Challenge” and start with others on January 7th.  Travis is planning to do it!  I’m breastfeeding so I can’t personally participate (but still plan to do the “Nursing Mother” challenge).  If you’re interested in learning more, please email me at lindsayslist@gmail.com!

Current Tune:  Bop me over the head but I’m in love with Taylor Swift’s Shake It Off.  We dance to this song as a warm-up for Trackstars quite often.  I’ve almost gotten the group used to making fools of themselves.  Almost.

Current Drink:  Too much coffee….

Current Foods:  Cereal.  Ice cream.  Salads.  Pancakes.  And a whole lotta these PB2 crackers – so good!

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Current Holy Moly:  We have an OFFICIAL SPONSOR for Blend 2015!!!!!  I can’t tell you who it is yet but this company is SPECIAL!!  Like I’m freakishly excited that they’ll be our main sponsor.  FYI – Blend tickets will go on sale MID-JANUARY!  I’ll have more information to come!

Current Show(s):  Gilmore Girls, Scandal, Arrested Development

Current OutfitTHIS sweatshirt!  I wear it almost every day.  It’s just cozy, ya know?!    sweatshirt

If you buy one , get a size UP.  They run kinda small.

Current Indulgence: Too many…

Current Want:  A little down time.  I’m carving out time this week for just that!

Current Confession:   I have great fun tweezing the gray hairs out of my hair.  Sometimes I just stand in front of the mirror and go to town.  I should probably start coloring it but I’m just not ready to bite that bullet.

Current Love:  Henry’s homemade Certificate of Achievement.  He even spelled achievement correctly.  Love that kid.

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QUESTION:  Pick a “currently” and answer it!

splendid…lindsay

flashback friday: the body i’m meant to have

December 19, 2014 in Blog, Blogging, Body, ED, Faith, Flashback Friday, Inspiration by lindsaymwright

(I wrote this post two years ago.  Timehop reminded me of it and I thought today would be a good time to share it again.  I’m not quite ready to blog yet.  My papaw is still hanging in there (hospice – acute leukemia) and I’m thankful (so thankful) for your prayers and kind words!)

Reader emails.

If I were vain, I’d call them “fan mail”.  (But luckily, I’m too pretty to be vain.)

Instead, I take them for what they are – people reaching out.

Anytime I see one in my inbox, my mind fills with worry about what I’ll say, whether the words will be anointed, even before I click open.  The major theme among the emails:

DISCONTENTMENT and A DESIRE TO CHANGE.

Although I feel uneasy about these emails, it’s pretty easy for me to respond.  Because I’ve been there.  Heck, at moments, I’m still there.  The only difference between now and 5 years ago is that I’ve learned how to overpower any negative, self-hate thoughts that come in my mind.  I simply say, “I’m fearfully and wonderfully made.”

I can’t refute that.  And neither can the voices. 018 This particular reader email that I’m about to share encompasses the very things I said I love writing about: GOD and BODY IMAGE.  I’m sure there are other (correct and helpful) ways that this topic could have been approached, but, after some prayer and reflection, I responded the best I knew how.  I’d love to hear YOUR thoughts on the matter in the comments!

Here we go.

SUBJECT:  Help and Encouragement needed!  Please.

Dear Lindsay, I know you probably hear this a lot, but I think you should hear it again- What an awesome blog! Truly a blessing to come across!! I have followed many blogs in the past, but I was especially drawn to yours because of your spirituality. I’ve shared many of your struggles in the past (restrictive eating/laxative abuse) and am happy to say that God pulled me out of all of that last year. The mental and emotional healing is still in progress. That’s where I have a question for you. I still struggle with weighing myself multiple times a day and counting calories excessively, only to be disappointed with any progress, or lack there of. I’ve finally come to a place where I want the body God intended me to have.  I want it. Regardless of what the scale says, or how many calories I eat a day, I want what God intended for me to have. And I don’t think I’m that far off! (In my mind, probably 10-12lbs). I DO believe that the buck doesn’t stop here- that God has an even better body in store for me. My question is this- how? How do you trust God with something that you have always been in control of? And not just that, but something that you have been FIERCELY in control of? I know that my efforts will only lead to frustration and not being successful (doing it in my own strength, that is). But trusting God, letting Him direct me in this area, is probably the hardest obstacle I’ve come to in my journey.  Your thoughts?

Whoa.

The first thing I wrote back was, “Before I answer your question, tell me what you mean by you’re 10-12 pounds from the body God wants you to have. Are you 10 pounds over that goal or under that goal?  Knowing that will help me answer you!”  The reader answered back that she was 10-12 pounds ABOVE that weight.  With that knowledge in mind (and again, some prayer time), I was able to respond.

Dear Reader, It’s so hard when a person who has struggled with disordered eating wants to lose weight. Because all of the tips and things that I could tell you to do, often backlash and our past comes back to haunt us.  I’d like to ask – Why do you think that the body that God wants you to have is 10 pounds lighter?? Honestly, God doesn’t really care about your body size, but rather, your heart.  That being said, I don’t think He necessarily wants you to be fat or overweight or uncomfortable.  He wants your HEART to be in a good place.  For you to love yourself. For you to treat your body with respect.  He made the body you’re in right at this moment.  10 pounds “overweight.”  And I don’t think He cares what the number is. I threw my scale in the garbage because it was controlling me.  I don’t count calories anymore because they were controlling me.  I’m working right now to cut back on an exercise addiction that is controlling me.  I know that, for me, I had to stop cold turkey and really GIVE IT OVER to God.  In the end, it’s your heart that matters.  What are you putting before Him?  These things become idols in our lives and what God so desperately wants is for HIM to be an idol.  I can guarantee you, if you give these things up and ask God to guide you, He will honor that sacrifice! The body, your weight, how you look in clothes – all trivial and NOT eternal.  You are definitely in my prayers – I hope what I said doesn’t come across as the wrong answer – it’s just my heart.

Lindsay

The message that I can’t stop repeating, the whole idea behind “Tearing Down Idols”, is this:

Put your time and effort into THE HEART.  Into others.  Into your marriage/family/community.  When those aspects of your life are fulfilled, the number on the scale won’t matter.  It just won’t.  It will pale in the light of the sense of peace and contentment that comes from focusing on the things that TRULY MATTER.  I promise. 

060 Does this mean you should stop working out and eating healthfully?  Absolutely not.  I KNOW that God made our bodies to MOVE.  I also know that He wants us to respect our bodies by nourishing them with foods that fuel, rather than harm.

It’s the obsession with all things BODY that I disagree with.   

Will the number on the scale matter when you die?  Will your perfect body give you eternal life?  No.

The body – no. 

The heart – YES!

QUESTION:  What are your thoughts on using the phrase, “The body God intended me to have?”

splendid…lindsay

these kids….they’re learning

December 12, 2014 in Blog, Family, Homeschooling, Intentional Living, Kids, Motherhood by lindsaymwright

There are a million little pieces of white paper on my kitchen floor.

This gives me goosebumps.

If you know me, you know that floors are my thing.  My crazy comes out.  They must be clean.  I think every woman (person) has their own kind of crazy.  Maybe yours is that you can’t stand having dirty laundry or you can’t seem to filter the things that come out of your mouth or you have to sleep in a certain position or your whole day is off.  I don’t know.  I just know that floors are my thing and having a million teeny-tiny pieces of white paper on my kitchen floor gives me anxiety like no other.

Food pieces (or wet, mushy poop pieces) would be worse.  So today I’m thankful that it’s just paper.

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Clara is learning how to cut.

With big people scissors.

(That’s not a commentary on dwarfism.  Just adult scissors versus small child scissors.)

I drew some shapes on a piece of computer paper and I let her have at it, cutting them out.  The circle I drew came out looking more like a rectangle when she cut it but she’s only four and I don’t think they have any type of scissor-skill competitions at her age so we’re good.  ….For now.  I really should have given her the smaller scissors but I can’t seem to find them in our junk drawer right now.  There’s just too much junk in there (seriously I found a roll of pennies!  Who keeps rolls of coins in their house??  Me.).  I looked in the backup junk drawer and the scissors are lost.  This means I’ll put them on my grocery list, spend $6 picking out the pink pair of kid scissors (because Clara will insist – if they had a glitter pair, I’m sure we’d pick that one), then arrive home and the old $3 pair that I already had will pop out at me and scream, “Here I am!!  You ninny!  Now you own two pair of ridiculously small scissors!!  Ha!”

Story of my life….

Anyway, Clara is trying and she’s getting the hang of it.  I haven’t told you the story of our trip down to Cabbage Patch General Hospital (yes, there is such a place) or about how I tried my hardest to talk her into getting a doll that I’D actually like looking at or about how she quickly slapped that idea right out the window and picked one of the uglier babies at the hospital (when a mama knows, a mama knows) and named her, “Ayizabeth.”  The doll is laying on our living room floor right now, “playing” and “being SOOOOO good.”  “She doesn’t even cry, Mama!  She’s SOOOOO good.”

I smile.

Porter has learned to clap.

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And it’s the most precious thing in the world.  And he KNOWS he’s doing something monumental.  He just lights up with the biggest grin.  The way that children learn is just fascinating.  One day they just DO IT.  They just learn.  He’s also found his “pincher fingers.”  I’ve been waiting.  For a few weeks, it seemed like he might go his entire life just batting and swatting at the Cheerios in front of him (people would call him baseball-mitt hands – this is what I was envisioning) but luckily he just started pinching at things this week.  I think Henry gave him a lesson while I had my back turned (searching for the scissors).  Henry gets a star on his chart for that one.

Speaking of…

Henry is learning to how to put stickers on his chart.

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He has a reading chart.  One sticker for every book he reads.  He’s getting super sly about what he defines as a “book.”  It’s really funny to watch.  He’ll get a book and mentally cut it into chapters (even if there aren’t chapters) then call the individual chapters “books”.  I think I was distracted one day (yes, really) and said that he could put a sticker on for reading only a couple of pages of a book and since then he’s tried to pull one over on me every.single.time.  Like I said, it’s fun to watch.  And oh man, I get the proudest-mom smile when he chooses to read his Bible.  All by himself.  Like my heart just bursts and I want to go shower him in kisses and say “YES!  This is the BEST book!  And don’t you just love Psalms?!?!  Aren’t the poems just beautiful?!?!  And isn’t the story about Moses just the COOLEST!?!”  But I don’t.  Because I want him to want to read the Bible for himself and not because it pleases his mother so I sit back and watch and pray over the time he reads, praying that God will turn him into a sponge and he’ll soak up all the goodness that’s in that book.

So those are the things my kids are learning at the moment.

And those are the things that I am learning.  The mess, the sticker trickery, the joy of clapping.  I get to take a front seat to all of that.

And it’s good.

So, so good.

splendid…lindsay

on being present and blogging

November 24, 2014 in Blog, Blogging, Goals, Inspiration, Intentional Living, Meh, Rambles by lindsaymwright

It’s currently Sunday night.

I just sat down on the couch.

I’ve got Travis’ cuddly blue robe on and I’m about to head into the kitchen for my nightly bowl of cereal (on a frosted mini-wheats streak right not that I don’t forsee ending anytime soon).  My hands smell of lavender – a reminder of the bath I just gave Porter.  We laughed and laughed as I dribbled water onto his belly and he tried to catch hold of it.  The most rudimentary of science projects – learning that you can’t really “catch” water.

Anyway, I’m sat down to crank out a quick “Weekend Scenes” post.  I’m shocked that there are a total of four pictures that I’ve taken over the weekend.

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I made banana bread.  It was a little dry.

Except deep down, I’m not surprised at all.  Four pictures seems like four too many right now.

I’ve felt this shift in myself for quite sometime now.

This internal struggle that I’ll try to get out of my head and out onto “paper” and even doing that feels like it’s taking too much time away from the things that matter most.

Point blank:  I kinda over blogging.

And taking pictures.

And sharing moments.  My moments.  OUR moments.

This feeling…it’s not something that’s new.  I remember a year into this gig (I’m in my fourth year now) thinking, “Blogging is ….well….selfish.”

Thinking that your life is so important that someone else would think it’s worth reading about is, inherently, selfish.

Taking selfies.  Self centered.

Taking pictures of your food.  A little ridiculous.

Saying, “Hold up!  Let me document this on Instagram,” and then completely missing the moment.  That’s selfish.

Even when you go in with the right motives (which are?!?), most of what goes into writing a post, taking the pictures for a post and then promoting that post is somewhat self serving.  You can KNOW this and still do it…but it won’t fulfill you.  Not nearly as much as actually being IN those moments that you’re scrambling to share.  Sometimes there’ll be this purely magical moment of my children playing together or my husband smiling in this certain way and the blogger-me wants to immediately break that special moment, grab my phone, snap a picture and then post it so everyone else can see how magical it was/is.  Except that doing so takes me and that person OUT of the magic, interrupting something that might never take place again.  And all so I can show other people.

Don’t get me wrong – my motive behind sharing is pure.  I just want for others to see.  Not to think that I’m magical….but that these moments are magical.  That my GOD is wonderful enough to bless me with these moments.  So in that sense, I don’t think the sharing is necessarily wrong or selfish.  In fact, there is bound to be some “sharing of the gospel”-good in social media.  Right?!

But still.

I find myself not blogging as much.  Not posting to Instagram or Facebook as much.  I find myself retreating to my house, this little corner, and not wanting to give any of the pieces away.  Our pieces.  Because doing so DOES take me out of the moment.  It takes me away from being present.

I’m not sure what the end result will be or what will come.  I just wanted to share a snippet of my heart and how I’m feeling these days.  Maybe you can relate.

Relate.

That word.  I love it so. 

And again I’m reminded why I blog.

Full circle.

QUESTION:  How can we still do this (social media, blogging) and also remain PRESENT??

splendid…lindsay

friday’s four things

November 21, 2014 in ask me anything, Blog, Blogging, Fivethings Friday, Lists, Rambles, survey by lindsaymwright

Anybody else feel like this week just sucked the life right out of them?  Smile

I just never really got a good flow with life this week.  Luckily it’s the weekend and I have an extra pair of hands to help me (makes all the difference, no?).  We have a pretty chill weekend lined up so I’m excited to get a few things done around the house before next week’s holiday.  I have a feeling it’s going to be crazy at the coffee shop so I want to try and get ahead on paperwork and payroll.

So I’ve seen this quiz floating around in blogworld lately and it looked like fun so I scooped it up.  If you blog and want to play along, I’ve created a blank copy at the bottom of the post – just highlight, copy and paste right over into your own post (remember to link back so I can get a ping and go read!).  Here goes….

Friday’s Four Things

Four names that people call me other than my real name:

  1. Linds (friends)
  2. Mama (Kids)
  3. Babe, Lover (Travis)
  4. Punkinhead (my dad)

Four jobs I’ve had:

  1. Summer Day Camp counselor (first job)
  2. Fat Buddies waitress (during high school….flippin’ LOVED that job!)
  3. Healthcare Consultant (after college….my degree is in Health Administration & Policy.)
  4. NASM-cpt/group fitness instructor (now)

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Four movies I’ve watched more than once:

  1. Love Actually
  2. Princess Bride
  3. Sleepless in Seattle
  4. Little Women

(Honorable mentions:  You’ve Got Mail, Royal Tenenbaums, Pulp Fiction, Star Wars (NOT the newer ones), Office Space, Casablanca and White Christmas.  Gosh I LOVE movies!!)

Four books I’d recommend:

  1. The Best Yes by Lysa Terkeurst
  2. Created To Be His Helpmeet by Debi Pearl
  3. Little House in the Big Woods by Laura Ingalls Wilder <-actually I recommend the entire set – Clara can’t read yet but this is already on her bookshelf.
  4. Crazy Love by Francis Chan

Four places I’ve lived:

  1. Franklin, NC
  2. Chapel Hill, NC
  3. Westminster, CO
  4. Chattanooga, TN

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Four places I’ve been:

  1. Las Vegas
  2. Yellowstone National Park
  3. Vail, CO
  4. Destin, FL

(sadly never out of the US.  That needs to change ASAP!)

Four places I’d rather be right now:

  1. Colorado (a piece of my heart will always be there – good thing Blend 2015 is back in BOULDER next year!)
  2. Anyplace warm!  Why is it so cold already?!?!
  3. Anywhere that lulls Porter into sleeping through the night.  He’s on a strike.
  4. I can’t think of a fourth.  I like being right where I am (which is currently standing at my kitchen table, listening to Henry read his Astronomy lesson).

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Four things I don’t eat:

  1. Fast food.  There are two exceptions and both from McDonald’s: vanilla cone and an egg mcmuffin.  Yum.
  2. Olives.
  3. Those little mini corn things that you find at the salad bar.  What ARE those?!?  Gross.  That’s what they are.
  4. Most squashes.  I just don’t.  The texture or something.

Four of my favorite foods:

(again…why do I have to narrow this?  too hard.)

  1. Eggs (in any form).
  2. Cereal.
  3. Froyo (duh – I own a froyo shop!).
  4. Grilled chicken (boring but I could pretty much eat chicken for any meal…just goes with so much.)

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Four TV shows I watch:

  1. Scandal (our current fave)
  2. Gilmore Girls.
  3. The Office.
  4. Parks & Rec.

Four things I’m looking forward to this year:

  1. Continued growth in my MoveMore groups!
  2. Continued growth in my relationships (family, friends, God)
  3. The upcoming holidays!  (and our traditions…)
  4. Ringing in another year with Travis.

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Four things I’m always saying:

  1. Stop.
  2. Quiet.  (or shhhhhhhhh!)
  3. Please (we’re big on manners over here).
  4. I love you.

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QUESTION:  Pick a question and tell me YOUR four!

splendid…lindsay

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FOUR THINGS QUIZ

Four names that people call me other than my real name:

Four jobs I’ve had:

Four movies I’ve watched more than once:

Four books I’d recommend:

Four places I’ve lived:

Four places I’ve been:

Four places I’d rather be right now:

Four things I don’t eat:

Four of my favorite foods:

 

Four TV shows I watch:

Four things I’m looking forward to this year:

Four things I’m always saying:

refreshed

November 18, 2014 in Blog, Blogging by lindsaymwright

Happy Tuesday my friends!

As I sit down to type on Monday afternoon, I just noticed I have yellow poop underneath the nail on my right index finger.  LOL.  THIS is the type of Monday I’ve had.  After being away all weekend, my to-do list is a mile long, my kids have forgotten how to speak in normal-not yelling voices and poop…there has been a lot of poop.  And like 15 loads of laundry.  So like 15 cups of coffee.  Smile  It can only go up from here.  <-side note – I SWEAR I had a post scheduled for Monday…but nothing posted.  So yeah. #losingmymind

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This past weekend I had the GREAT pleasure of attending and speaking at the Refresh Summit.  Held in Franklin, Tennessee at Deer Run Retreat (seriously google this place – it was beautiful!), Refresh Summit is a faith and fitness conference organized by my good friend Bobbi McCormick.  While I don’t really want to sit down here and write out a full recap of the weekend, I do want to share some pictures and a few takeaways.  A couple of readers have asked me to share my workshop notes (Body Image) and I plan to do that later in the week – I need to put some prayer and more thought into all that I want to share.

A few notes about Refresh:

There were about 40 women in attendance, all different shapes and sizes, some bloggers but the majority were not.  Some blogger friends there: Ericka, Katie, Brittany, Amia, and Bobbi!

The atmosphere was COZY.  Coffee cups, leggings and fuzzy socks, thick scarves and glasses, makeup-free faces and messy buns.  I was in my element (and in my pjs a lot).

I discovered a new worship artist that I love – Krissy Nordhoff!  She led worship several times throughout the weekend and wrote “Your Great Name” – one of my favorites (she won a Dove Award for it!).  Check her out!

We were encouraged to put our phones away (talk about REFRESHING!!!!) and to only share on social media when we really felt we needed to.  I think I took five pictures the entire weekend (which for a blogging conference is UNHEARD of).

Since Porter is still nursing, I took him with me.  He did SO well throughout the weekend – he slept A LOT and was generally amused by all of the women who wanted to hold him.  I was able to be involved in most every event (except the late night ones – we went to bed at 9pm and 10pm on Friday and Saturday nights).

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Sponsors:  ReebokOrganic ValleyDetour BarPB2QuestKINDBarGrowing NaturalsVegaRX BarsPlant FusionLove Grown GranolaSkoopNu Naturals, Zevia, Musselman’s, The Good Bean

A few takeaways from Refresh:

I want to go back!

I want to take you with me!

Being at Refresh and around these women made me excited for Blend Retreat next May!  I just love the fellowship of having friends all together for a few days.

After speaking on body image, I realize that I have a duty to be a mentor.  Speaking with and praying over struggling women is a blessing and I want to be an open vessel that God can use.  I want to HELP!

I feel refreshed.  I feel strong.  I am ready to encourage!

While the 2015 conference dates have yet to be announced, I really hope to make it back, especially if there is one held within driving distance.  I feel like this conference is SPECIAL and needs to gain more exposure – whether you’re a new Christian or you’ve been walking with God for years and years, there’s something at Refresh Summit for you!  A big thank you to Bobbi and the other Refresh hosts for allowing me to speak (and for giving me my own room so I could nurse topless Winking smile).

QUESTION:  Ever been to a faith retreat before?  A blogging conference?

splendid…lindsay