My brother-in-law, Shah Zolfaghari was recklessly murdered on Wednesday morning.  He left behind my sister-in-law (Travis’ eldest sister, Camila) and their 1-year old daughter, Zoya.  You can read more about it here.

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For two days now, I’ve opened up my laptop and LiveWriter to type out those words.  For two days, I’ve shut my laptop and walked away without writing.  I have feared that writing about his death would somehow seem like me trying to draw attention to MY grief and my pain.  Even though that’s the farthest thing from the truth, I still heard those whispers.  Surely lies from the enemy.

It wasn’t until just now when Julie shared the GoFundMe page and  Katy called me a “well-known and much loved blogger” on Facebook that I felt brave enough to sit down to this space.  I do have a platform.  I do have a voice.  I do have things to say. 

And my heart is broken for my family.

In times of tragic trial like these, anger rises (who is this evil, senseless person who would take a life?!?) and sadness creeps in.  There are no words for this kind of sorrow that we’re feeling, that Camila is feeling.  It’s tangible.  The sadness is thick.

But so is the inexplicable comfort.

The Holy Spirit.

A blanket of all-surpassing peace.  It’s been laid thick on the Wright family.

There has never been a greater time than now for me to share my faith with you all.  I see God all around.  I see Him in the friends and family who have rallied to our family’s side.  I see Him on Zoya’s face.  I see Him as Travis mows Camila’s lawn because that’s something Shah would be doing and he can’t.  God is in every bit of this.  Even when the sadness lodges itself in the back of my throat when I think about the weeks, months, years to follow and what that will look like, I can also see fruit. I see JOY.  Not quite yet…but it’s coming.  Good things are coming.

God will rebuild the old ruins, raise a new city out of this wreckage.  He will give “beauty for ashes and messages of JOY instead of news of doom*.”  Without that faith of renewal, of God’s provision, I have nothing.  We have nothing.  But God will provide.  It says so right in His word, the word I’ve built my entire life upon.  I want to share the news of good things to come.  I want to share the hope of life eternal and an earthly life filled with JOY.

So I will say something while I have the chance…because Shah can’t.  And he would want you to know of God’s great love.

splendid…lindsay

*Isaiah 61:3

  1. Jamily Fuller says:

    I read this post as soon as it came across in my email. I haven’t stopped thinking about it and I’ve been wanting to comment but didn’t know what to say. I’m so very sorry for the loss in your family. If there’s anything I know is that God is faithful and merciful. I pray your family, especially sister-in-law, can seek Him and His perfect peace during this painful time.

  2. Stephanie says:

    i just watched the video with tears in my eyes, Lindsay. I’m so sad for your sister in law and the rest of your family. how tragic.

    God is an ever present help in times of trouble. a rock, an anchor, a comforter indeed. may His name be glorified even in the midst of this sad time. much love, friend. i will certainly be keeping your family in my prayers.

  3. Karen says:

    You said so beautifully what so many of us wish we could expess. Thank you. I know the Lord is carrying your family through this terrible storm and is the source of comfort and peace. Your family is a living testimony for Christ.

  4. Loraine Momon says:

    Neither do I have the words to say what I want to say . I was so shocked and sad when I heard the news. Rest assured that we are praying for you cousins. Wish there was something I can do but I do know Prayers do help. Love all of you.

  5. Jamison says:

    Thank you for sharing, praying for Zoya and Camila, and for all of your family … I’ve been a silent follower of your blog for several years now and I’m sorry it took this tragic story for me to comment. Thank you for sharing God in all of the ups and downs of life, you’ve been prayed for way more than you could possibly know.

  6. Tracey Malone says:

    Oh my. I am so very so sorry and thank you for sharing. I would never know such news unless you blogged about this. I will be praying. I feel your pain. My brother in law was killed in a car accident at the age of 24. When someone is taken so early in life it is so difficult. We must trust and lean on our mighty God.

  7. Debi Maize says:

    Absolutely beautiful words, Lindsay… It is in trials and turmoil and times of grief and sorrow we see God working. Faith… One little word with such huge impact :)

  8. Dale says:

    Well said, Lindsay. Our hope is built on Jesus and His Spirit that lives within us. Know prayers are being prayed for the entire Wright family.. I love you sweet girl!

  9. LaRessie says:

    I will continue to pray for your family!!! My heart aches at the horror!! But I know God is there for all of you and the love He gives is amazing!!! God bless you all and thank you for sharing!!!! ❤️

  10. Sarah Overton says:

    This is beautiful Lindsay. I’ve struggled with the injustice of it all. I’ve felt heartbroken and angry and saddened. And my Dad helped me realize that that’s how God feels too. He’s not ok with this. But He’s to comfort and guide and lead. You said it so well. And like I told your Mama today, if I can help in any way at all please let me know. I can watch the kids or clean or cook or whatever.

  11. Stephanie says:

    Wow, this is the type of thing you never expect to happen to those you love, something senseless and so tragic. I am so sorry for your loss, and for your family’s loss. Love and prayers with you and your family. x

  12. Brooke says:

    Oh Lindsay, my heart is so broken for you and your family. Yet this post brought me joy, because faith does that. And I’m filled with joy at the sharing of your faith and your hope. I KNOW God will use this, will use you, your family, and especially Shah. He will bring glory to His Name and He will bring you all peace and comfort. Know that so many are grieving for you all and hitting our knees on your behalf. Xoxo

  13. Sherry Vanhook says:

    Beauty for ashes….sums it up! Love all of you and there is a reason for this…no questions asked! But answers to come……..His promise not mine

  14. Katie @ Peace Love & Oats says:

    I am just at loss. My mind can never wrap itself around these tragic and senseless deaths, but I do take comfort in the fact that we aren’t meant to understand. We’re meant to have faith that God is there to give us the strength to move forward and to love those around us. I am so sorry for the pain your family is going through, Lindsay, and I admire you for turning to God and encouraging others to do the same. Sending you much love.

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