I probably shouldn’t have written this post. Just let the silence speak for itself.
But I can’t help myself.
I’m an overexplainer. <-yes I know that’s not a word. I must explain to you that I know it’s not a word.
Hear this –> I’m happy.
Like really happy.
I’m in a different place than I was 4 1/2 years ago when I started this blog.
Back then, I had more free time. I had two young, napping children who gave me a solid 2 hours a day to sit down and write.
I also felt the need to be seen.
To have an identity that went further than “MOMMY.”
(Pick a fight with me over that statement….how being a mom is enough…and then go blog about it or talk on social media. Full circle here, people. You’re me too. I digress…)
Taking pictures of my meals (wow they were horrible pictures – it looks like we were living in a cave all the time), updating my Facebook status 10 times a day (which switched over to Instagram and then Vine and then Snapchat) and just being “plugged in” at all times –> these things became part of me. I became (and had time to fully embrace being) a blogger. The hats just kept coming after that….some I sought out, some just landed on my head…but almost 5 years later, I find myself with a cramped neck from holding all the hats and showing allllll the moments and living a social media lifestyle.
Truth: I’m kinda burnt out.
And that’s ok.
I’m in a place now where I KNOW who I am, where my value lies. I don’t necessarily need online validation (although I think we all crave it at least a little, teeny bit). I have real life friends, a real life community. And my kids are at ages where they require more and more of me and less and less of the me-with-a-phone-in-my-hands.
Since I need a plan in place (always), I figured I would write out what you should expect from me in the months to come.
Expect silence. Then be surprised when I chime in with a post or a vlog or an Instagram picture. I know I’m not ready to step away completely – I do still LOVE this outlet very much. I just don’t want to force it. And I know I’m not alone – several of my favorite bloggers feel this way. Maybe there’s a 5 year blogging itch?? Who knows.
This will be the first weekend in a LONG time that I’m going to put my phone (essentially my camera) away in the kitchen drawer. When I have something to share, I’ll share it. But for most days, online silence is best.