Binge eaters know their trigger foods.
Alcoholics know their drink of choice.
Adulterers know those people they should stay away from.
And a recovered anorexic knows that she probably shouldn’t count calories.
Now to clump all of those behaviors together might seem ridiculous to some. Ruining a marriage isn’t the same as binging on a bag of Flame Hot Doritos. No.
Except let’s look a little further.
Both behaviors are toxic. Both are clear indicators of a lack of SELF CONTROL. Both are considered sin. And both are absolutely avoidable.
(Did I step on any toes yet?)
I’m not really here to talk about sin or the psychology of toxic behaviors. I want to talk about COUNTING CALORIES and what that looks like for someone who has dealt with an eating disorder. If you’re a long-time reader, you’ve heard my story before. For years, I counted every single thing that I put into my body. A cup of cereal. A serving of broccoli. Even down to a stick of (sugarfree) gum. Ending the day and knowing that I was under 300 calories gave me a sense of control and a sense of purpose. To this day, I can tell you the calorie count for almost any food you put before me. It’s just engrained in my head. After years of counting and looking at nutrition labels, I know those numbers.
For some recovered people, getting back into counting calories might be perfectly fine. Yet even as I type that sentence out, I have a hard time believing it fully. Once you’ve taken a perfectly healthy (and sometimes very necessary) step of analyzing what goes into your body to a UNHEALTHY, scary place, I find it reckless to go back there. But to each his own. I know that, for me, worrying about food and calories and dieting only leads to discontentment. Watch the vlog to hear more.
So how do I make sure I’m getting enough calories? How would I go about losing weight if I needed to?
That post is in the works. Check back this week!
QUESTION: Do you count calories? Do you find it helpful or dangerous territory?