Yesterday, Henry beat a video game that even Travis couldn’t beat.

I was asleep when it happened.  Because, you know, I’m a million months pregnant and that can get exhausting.

I know that Henry beat the game, not because HE told me but because my deliriously-proud husband came bouncing in the bedroom, down right gleaming about his son’s accomplishment.

“I could not love him more.”

Those were the exact words.

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I laid there, still drowsy and listened as this proud daddy went on and on about his son.  All I could do was smile, feeling abundant love for my husband because of his abundant love for our children.  We share stories like this all the time.  About how Clara walked up to Travis’ truck last week, placed her fingers along the words, “Toyota Tacoma,” and very slowly “read” out, “Daaaa-ddy’s Truck.  DADDY’S TRUCK!!  That’s what it say, Mama!!  That’s what it SAY!”  Or about how Henry has earned 78 stars (towards his needed 100) on his reading chart and all he wants is a set of Legos “but not the easy ones, the hard ones.”  Or how they’ll play so nicely together and invite one another to their “birthday parties,” which we celebrate nearly every day.

As parents, we can’t help but dote on those kids.  Oh my word, they can be annoying sometimes.  And loud.  And messy.  And inconvenient.  I can say all those things about them and still know that I couldn’t DO this life without them.  And not just any kids but Henry Cole Wright and Clara Kathleen Wright – those exact ones.  They’re mine.  I grew them.  I see bits and pieces of myself, of Travis, in them.

And God made me to be their mama.  Me!?!

Every tool I need to parent them in exactly the way that they need to be parented….God placed IN me.  FOR THEM.  He gives me peace.  He gives me patience.  He provides me with wisdom and strength and a mama bear-like passion.  Oh!  And He gives me rest when I need it.

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For these things, for this PRIVELEGE, I can only say, “I could not love Him more.”*

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splendid…lindsay

*And also “thank you.”  I say that a lot too.  Because we use our “man-yors” around here.

  1. Brooke says:

    Wowza. What a beautiful post. And something that I’ve been thinking about lately as well! There are so many days that I wish my kids came with an instruction manual. But really? They kinda did <3

  2. Lia says:

    Loved this post! I have been really anxious lately about the thought of getting pregnant in the next year. I want to have a baby more than anything but I don’t feel worthy or equipped enough to be a mom… How will I know how to parent a child? How do I discipline? How will I know the best way to keep them safe and healthy? I’m so nervous and it seems so overwhelming but this post reminded me that I can do it with God’s help…I just have to ask Him. Thanks!

  3. Ari says:

    Oh how I love this post! Motherhood brings a lot of emotions and feelings, and the biggest one is LOVE. You are right, I could not live this life without mine! Now I want to go cuddle with my sleeping babies… :)

  4. Ashley @ My Food N Fitness Diaries says:

    I love this post so much! Several of the things you told us here just gave me a huge smile or giggle … because I TOTALLY know what you’re saying. I always love everything you tell us that Clara says. She’s the cutest! My life is so much better because of Hunter. He brings me SO much joy, and I couldn’t be more proud to be his mama.

  5. Bonnie says:

    I love your gratitude, I love Travis’ heart, I love your uniquely-you kids and the fact that God made you for (five!) in his image. You are loved! Life is so much bigger than the little things that grab for our attention and God.is.good. Thanks for this wonderful reminder and praise of a post!

  6. Domi @ Eat, Pray, Lift says:

    This is so beautiful. Such truth, so beautifully expressed, and such love, so beautifully shown. Those sweet children are so lucky to have you and Travis, and we are ALL so lucky to have a Papa who delights in us like He does.

  7. Heather says:

    Amen! I sobbed through this post because it’s so so true. How much more does our Heavenly Father take delight in us?? GAH!!

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