Make lists. Check items off the list. Fast.
Make babies. Do it now.
Make more money. More. More. No really, you need more.
Then crash. Fall.
And possibly fail.
You guys, I’m absolutely wiped out. Mentally and physically. I’m fully aware – I did this to myself. Crammed as much as I possibly could onto my plate (the show, Blend, work, freelance opportunities, this blog) and now, on this particular Monday, it’s all catching up with me. I have to slow down.
I don’t know HOW to slow down.
It’s not my first nature. I know how to overcommit. THAT I can do.
But at what cost??
We live in a world where busyness and “full plates” are glorified. If you’re not pushing towards the next goal, then what are you doing?! Being lazy. Being boring. And speaking of these goals, they’re usually not anything that we should be pursuing in the first place!! Who flippin’ cares if my floors are vacuumed three times a week?! Or if I make an extra $10 this week at the gym?! NO!
There is something missing in all of this. There is something more. – The Sacred Romance
I actually surprised myself yesterday. The show was finally over. My mom kept the kids on Saturday night, so I got to sleep in (until 8:20!!) When I woke up, like always, I thought about all the things I could get done without the kids being around – grocery shopping, cleaning, exercising, maybe pre-write some posts. Essentially, I thought about all the DOING that could be done.
Then I walked into the living room and found this waiting for me:
Placed there by dear, head-of-this-household husband, who’d already left for church. Because he knew that I needed to read it. He knew that his wife needed to read and rest and sip her coffee.
And to spend time with her FIRST LOVE.
And that’s what I want to say (which is totally not what I thought I’d be writing about today). Life and lists and things-to-do can get overwhelming when WE pick and choose the things that we’re doing. But if we could just get out of the way and let GOD pick and choose for us, leading our paths, this life would be so much simpler. FULFILLING! I don’t know that I always do that: Ask God what I should do with my day. More than half of the time, I decide first, without a thought about praying and seeking. It’s most assuredly the wrong way to go about life. And honestly, It leaves me thirsty and tired and worn out.
I sat and read that book all morning. I didn’t go to church. I didn’t change out of my pajamas. I didn’t vacuum or do any of the things I had on my list. The only action verb that defined my yesterday was….SEEK.
Trust. (Isaiah 40:31)
And slow down.
Maybe you’re good at slowing down, at being mindful. I want to be like you. Or maybe you’re like me and you need other people to tell you when to slow down. If so, this is ME telling YOU to start focusing on those items in your life that are important, that are worthy. To put energy there. And to let go of everything else. I give you permission. But you really don’t need it.
QUESTION: Do you tend to overcommit yourself? Ever read “The Sacred Romance”?