That’s an email I sent yesterday to my dear friend, Lindsay. It was a cry for help (to which she had some wonderful words of encouragement!)
I’m usually really good at multi-tasking and being able to balance it all. It seems lately though, that I’ll lay down at night and think, “WHAT DID I DO TODAY THAT HAD ETERNAL PURPOSE??” Twitter, Facebook, this blog…none of those things really matter longterm. After I put the kid’s down just now, it hit me. I had basically ignored them for the last two hours, doing things that I thought were more important. My heart broke in an instant.
I’ve got too many things on my plate, guys. Let’s make a list.
An “on my plate” list:
- Aladdin rehearsal every night this week. Dress Rehearsal’s start Saturday, show opens next Tuesday.
- BLEND Retreat stuff. Lots of different pieces to be worked on.
- A couple of writing assignments with deadlines fast approaching.
- Three product reviews that need to be written.
- Countless emails to return.
- Tuesday Trainer video to come up with and film.
- Cook and deliver a meal to my friend who just had a baby.
This is all on TOP of my normal wife and mother duties.
Then, under all of THAT, comes time with God, which should be the foundation on which everything else falls. I’m been SEVERELY lacking in spending quality time in the Word. I KNOW that I feel like I’m drowning because I’ve neglected my Abba.
So that’s what I’m doing today instead of writing my E.D. post (which I’ll resume next Wednesday).
I’m spending some time with Him.
Filling up my tank again.
Then all the other stuff will fall into place.
I’m not expecting a quick fix to this. I need to learn how to say NO. The show will end soon enough and I don’t plan on doing another one for quite some time. Planning BLEND is actually pretty fun.
Blogging is fulfilling. To a point.
I’m taking Thursday and Friday OFF! I need time to BE IN THE MOMENT, and not online, wrapped up in “virtual moments”. I need to sit on the couch with Travis tonight and not be typing, while he finds something on TV. I need to be PRESENT! Does that make sense?
You can’t get rid of me for that long.
QUESTION: When’s the last time you smiled? Do you ever take on too much? Ways of coping? Have you ever taken a break from “the world”?
P.S. I need some MAJOR votes if I’m going to pull this Love Grown Foods win off! Please, Please Vote! Just “like” my picture. I think I’m behind because I haven’t opened up my blog to really all that many Franklin people. Should I??